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just in case he decides to look at my journal again [09 Jun 2004|12:23pm]
can you fucking imagine talking to the most amazing person you've ever met in your life, getting to know them and falling deeper in love with every word they say. they care about you so much.. the only thing holding them back from falling in love with you is the fear that they'll get hurt like they just had been not too long before by someone they were so in love with that they were planning to marry ...

then you get into an argument which sort of slows things down but you still care about this person more than youve cared about anyone in your entire life .. you just do a better job of hiding it this time around so things dont go too fast ....

and then you find out from one of his best friends that half the shit he was telling you was a complete fucking lie and that 'youre not his type' and that he's off humping some other girl ..

and youre really hurt to the point where you just want to cry and puke it all up ... and its 3.36 am and youre all alone?

i cant believe he lied about so much to me.

and hey gzus if you or any of your friends randomly get ahold of this IM NOT TALKING SHIT SO DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT ME ... IM JUST REALLY REALLY HURT AND SHOCKED RIGHT NOW .. you would be too if you found out all of this shit about someone you were in love with.

i dont know what else to say.. i really dont

im just super hurt. i really thought you were the most amazing person in the universe gzus.
18holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[27 Dec 2003|01:30pm]
ok, well, this morning i thought i called into work or something? i dont know what the fuck my problem is and i can tell sandie is pissed because i have missed 3 days due to THIS cold and 1 day due to the first cold i got.

i feel a lot better now, but the reason im at home is because i cant stop coughing ... and its not one of those coughs that regular medicine can take care of. its like .. a sick old man with emphysema cough. that kind. and already 3 times that ive had a really horrible cough attack, i've felt like totally blowing chunks all over the place. actually .. earlier this morning i almost did. it scared me because i didnt want to do it all over my bed. maybe thats what kept it from coming out.

i like to kill dumpling biscuits
8holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[27 Dec 2003|01:00am]
OH MY GODCollapse )
yaaa meeaan?

tell this ho-ish bitch to shut her yapper! [26 Dec 2003|08:42pm]
[ mood | not so sick anymore ]

o god we are SO j-moted right now! its like the westside reunion!

i NEED bangs! and i need to get all my fucking piercings done and shit .. and blaaaah!! and i need to finally get my hair dyed. ohhhhh ive been waiting soooo damn long to do that shit! id also very much like to buy some pants. hmm, holla if ya hear meeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

needs to clear out buddy list and set some priorities .. and also get onto this otha journaaaaaal biotch just get cho ass movin and in geaya cuz we about to bust a cap in his leatha ass mo'fuckaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

yaaa meeaan?

[26 Dec 2003|07:25pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

funCollapse )

today was a nice day spent with my brother and dad. i felt like total ass before i left the house and didnt feel like wearing nice clothes or putting any makeup on .. so my mom put my makeup on for me hehe .. just because :) then my dad, brother, and i went to sizzler and ate and then we went and saw part of haunted mansion and then saw the movie that we actually bought tickets for .. cheaper by the dosen. it was really cute and i cried at one little part. then we went to look for a present for eric and then my dad dropped us off at home and i made the movies and took some pictures. ok .. hope you enjoyed.

11holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[26 Dec 2003|12:55pm]
going out to lunch with the paternal unit
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[26 Dec 2003|12:23pm]
jack of all trades?

or jack of all ass?

you decide.

emerrti coming june 2004. dont die before then if you want to let your eyes have a piece.

ahhhhhhhhhhh sttttooooooooop stop ittttttt stooopppppppppppp ittttttttt!
yaaa meeaan?

[25 Dec 2003|10:50pm]
ok im making a list of all the stuff i got for xmas or that im getting for xmas <33

- sonic blue jagstang
- fender amp
- sony cybershot [3.2 megapixels]
- a 'my mom thinks im a super star!' t-shirt
- robot bracelet
- rainbow pj pants
- the coolest tampon case IN THE WORLD!
- a case and usb thing to transfer my pictures to my computer
- black/pink flower earrings
- a pink poodle best friends necklace <33 [maw has the other one which is blue]
- sees candy
- an alarm clock because my lazy ass needed one
- more pjs lol .. naturally sweet
- cute ass fuit socks <3333
- a green dice neckalce
- a blue scarf
- a flamingo bag set <333
- a 'the dog' dancing pug guy
- a cute bobbly head green guy
- a white circle bracelet thing
- a 'c' necklace/bracelet set lol
- a cute froggy keychain
- cookies

omg and i still have more to collect O_O! woaaaaaaaah!

oh and btw, i feel a tad better now. at least my stomach doesnt feel like falling out ... and im not coughing too much anymore either ... so my lungs dont hurt that bad anymore... but im still having trouble hearing and breathing :( and it hurts to swallow. and my ears hurt .. so im going to call in sick tomorrow. i think im going to the doctors, too. waste another day that i have off of work. that totally sucks. i like to make the most out of my off days because its not fair that i have to work so damn much and i never have time to have fun. i hate sitting around and doing nothing and being bored. when i was little i used to get so bored that id walk laps around my house. seriously. it sucked.
1holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[25 Dec 2003|06:52pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

god this is so weird. ive seen my dad like .. 10 times this year or some stupid number like that. he was supposed to come to see me and my brother today but the battery in his truck is dead so he's gonna get a new one tomorrow and come see us then. he had dinner with his cousin's ex-husband last night. my cousins michael and anthony were there. i havent seen them in years. my dad said anthony misses me a lot and wants to get together sometime. sounds swell.

anyhow .. it just sucks that my dad couldnt spend xmas with me and my brother. he called a few minutes ago and was crying because he misses us. its sad.

ok and here's another thing. i dont want to do web design in the future. i mean .. ill do it for myself and it would be fun to take the html and flash classes, but that's not what i want to do. i mean .. i KNOW what i want to do and im going to do it, but everyone in my family and most of my friends will think its stupid and that itll never work out. oh well .. too bad for them, cuz im going to do it. i guess i can get a bacelors in web design just in case what i want to do doesnt work out the way i plan .. bleh whatever. i just seriously dont want to go to a 4 year. id probably end up killing myself. i just want to take classes in order to learn things that im interested in. not stupid shit that i dont care about. blah blah blah .. alright. i just want to move out, have fun, and go whichever way life wants me to go. i guess nearly killing yourself gets you thinking about what you seriously want out of life. whatever makes you happy. i think as long as i make enough money to get by, but im happy, then ill be fine. i dont really care if im up in a mansion with my bling or not. ok well have a good night.

1holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[25 Dec 2003|05:37pm]
i stole againCollapse )
yaaa meeaan?

i resized them so they look shitty :\ [25 Dec 2003|04:42pm]
[ mood | sick ]

dont laugh at my ugliness :(

here's my mom laying on the cooooooouch

here's my brrrrroooooooooother

fighting doooogs!

woo! go rocky go!

go again rocky!

now its rocky AND hunter!

hunter's moment in the spotlight!

jumping and anal action!!!

oh and i just added 3 more :)

yaaa meeaan?

[25 Dec 2003|03:04pm]
i stoleCollapse )
yaaa meeaan?

merry christmas you little rats!!! again! [25 Dec 2003|01:18pm]
[ mood | but happy ]

ok i got a digital cameraaaaaaa!!!! wooooooo!! i woooouuullddd take pictures and post them, but my room is a mess and so am i. being sick makes me look like a monster. especially since i havent taken a shower since uhm, a day and a half ago? and i havent washed my face in a while and i dont care to put on nice clothes or brush my hair or put makeup on.

at least i dont feel as shitty as yesterday. and i really dont want to go to work tomorrow because i feel like crap still and i feel bad that i cant really do anything except for sit there and ring people up slowly and creapily ahkf,msjkljes ex dee!

i had a dream that i was back in high school and during snack some kids and i freestyled haha .. it was cool.

1holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[24 Dec 2003|09:57pm]
[ mood | sick ]

saturday wednesday night fever.

sleeping pills.

yaaa meeaan?

[24 Dec 2003|07:03pm]
im so sick. i didnt get ANY sleep last night and i kept having to go pee. then i had to go to work at 9 in the morning, but sandie let me leave when daniel got there. then i came home and took sleeping pills and sinus medicine and slept for hours and hours and i got out of bed about an hour and a half ago. now maw is coming over and we're gonna eat and give eachother presents!

well i feel like a big poop right now so im going to stop writing this.

merry christmas you little rats!!!
yaaa meeaan?

[23 Dec 2003|11:37pm]
max sexes me to death! he doesn't bore me there!!
yaaa meeaan?

[23 Dec 2003|03:13pm]
maaaaan i feel fucking TERRIBLE

work in 2 hours

i think im going to die
yaaa meeaan?

[22 Dec 2003|11:01pm]
well guess who can't go to sleep because she's coughing too damn much?!!!!

hahaaa yeah!

lately i've been wanting to get into shit with people. i think being tired and worn out makes me want to fight.

oh .. and earlier today i was thinking about making a list of the positive things about myself ... i guess this'll help me feel a little better about myself? i guess.

- i can play guitar
- im alright with computers
- im smart???????
- im pretty????????????????????????
- im funny

ok .. gee .. that didnt fucking help very much. pretty short ass list if you ask me.
2holla'd! yaaa meeaan?

[22 Dec 2003|09:42pm]
soo .. i did it once again. i'm sick. thanks to my brother who is also sick.

and lucky for me that this one is worse than the last. i just got it today and i already feel like fucking collapsing.
yaaa meeaan?

[22 Dec 2003|05:26pm]
well, i'm leaving for work again in about 10 minutes. how fun. work until 9.30 and then i get to come back home, sleep, and do it all again tomorrow! woo! and the cycle continues the next day, too! hmm .. i wonder what kind of soup subway has to offer? i think im gonna go check.
yaaa meeaan?

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